I don't know why...

But I really want to see Us in the thick of snowflakes :)

I miss You.

"... Lights will guide you home, and Ignite your bones,

and I will try to fix you."

-Fix You,Cold Play

If You Know What I Mean

Copied from a random blog. This just reminds me of something.

F: So, what now? 

M: It's only you and me now. That is the only thing that matters. 

F: Why didn't you look for me much earlier? We would have had much more time compared to   what we have now. 

M: I had my own doubts... And surely you had yours. I was questioning a lot of things. Being away from you helped me find the answers.

F: Were you? What kind of answers have you found?
M: What I want. What I need. Who I have to pour my heart to.
F: I don't know what we will be... but indeed your presence comforts me.
M: Was there anyone else comforting you since we parted?
F: In my mind, you have never left after all. Not even a step out of spine.
M: ...you know. I kind of hope this plane would fly forever, but I guess Brazil is warmer than this flying fridge. My hands are cold already.
F: Do you think people fall in to and out of love because of happenstances?
M: There can be no love without coincidence. I am not a believer of planned infatuation. You have to go through every pain to see if they are really worth loving.
F: Love seems like a scary concept if in order to possess it one ought to inevitably suffer in pain...  
M: It's not always the case. But like the saying goes, you wouldn't know what you've got until it's gone, right?
F: ...and that if it hurts, it's probably worth it.
M: Did it hurt?
F: If it did not hurt, I would not be leaning against your chest at the moment as if there was no tomorrow. Yet, if it had hurt me a little too much, I would not bear being around you this close.
M: Indeed. I can't afford letting the chance to return to you slip past me once again. I can't see you being apart from me once more. This time it's the heart really talking.
F: Would you like to have more stories together?
M: I wouldn't mind doing anything, but I'd put my emphasis on 'together'.  
F: Even if I am being utterly unreasonable about things? Such as, wanting to be with you perpetually?
M: Even if. Are you sure you would ever be more unreasonable than me - impulsively getting away with you to a city miles away from here?
F: I sure am. The farthest distance I would like to have with you from now on is a heartbeat away, if you don't mind.
M: I was thinking of ways for our hearts to beat together, actually. Would it be possible? Though a heartbeat away is probably the farthest I could handle. You know, I would not mind exploring your idea. A heartbeat away, isn't it? You and me?
F: A heartbeat away, it is. You and me.

Ouch.

Holla.

A lil bit shocked? I really can't close my eyes. It is 3.45 a.m. actually and just finished another Orizuka's book, "I For You". Believe me or not, I will cry over every single novel that I read. Those remind me of some memory of, hate to say this, past. It makes me wandering why can't I get one of  those valorous man. If those happy ending makes some flows on my pillow, How it could be If it had an sad ending*wiping tears*

Okay. It all was not the point. This disobedient tired eyes decided to do ... em, uh, well, kepo. We called it 'stalking' in another way. Yep. I just stalked. I mean, accidentally. I just see a tweet on my twitter's timeline, 

*viewed conversation*, 

*opened in new tab*, 

*scrolled down* 

and found an account that makes my forehead a little wrinkled. This girl has no twitter account, as I knew.

*opened her profile page*. -Damn, you curious mind 

I found her blog and, again, 

*opened in a new tab*. 

*Scrolled*, 

*older post*

AAAND, accidentally found a post. Random post. It's about a song of HiVi-Orang Ketiga. And I know she just wrote about me and another person that annoyed her. Not to be rude, but She's annoying, and it was the only reason why Her boyfriend, I mean ex, UPS, broke her up. It was not caused by me sweety bear :)

Ps. Yes, I am talking about, you. If you know what I mean. *winking* 

The Best Thing to do is Forget All Your Problem

Here again some randomness.
Actually, i have soooo much to share about today. 
But, whatever happened today it takes all my breath.
Yip yip forget it.
Here, you can copy it to your blog.

Name: 
Mella
how often do you clip your nails? 
whenever it's getting longer
Birthday: 
october, 21st
do you replace the toilet paper if you use the last piece? 
mine or public?

Birthplace:
Bukittinggi
how many pairs of shoes do you have? 
em many
Current Location: 
Bed room

what kind of laundry detergent do you use? 
Rinso
Eye Color:
Dark brown
do you weigh yourself often?
not that often
Hair Color:
black
can you tie a cherry stem in your mouth?
hven't tried it yet
Do you dye your hair?
noooooooooooooooo
do you shave?if so how often?
yes, before period
Height:
don't ask!
do you laugh out loud by yourself?
sometimes :D
Right or Left handed?
Right
who is the funniest person you know?
My college mates lol
Biggest weakness:
fickle
what is your favorite movie and why?
em harry potter maybe? I've had never got bored
Biggest fear:
hell
do you take daily medications?
no
Your perfect pizza:
whatever
what is the best thing you can cook?
fried rice
Goal you would like to achieve this year:
have a trip to pare
do you have any o.c.d habbits?
uh
Your most overused word or phrase on a messenger:
hem
do you test the water or dive straight in?
test it first
Thoughts first waking up:
where's my cellphone
would you peek in someone elses medicine cabinet? 
what?
Your best physical feature:
haha idk
do you chew straws? 
em you think?
Your bedtime:
fluctuate
do you iron your clothes?
yep
Number of hours of sleep per night:
fluctuate
what was your favorite childhood toy?
barbie
Favorite Drink:
Lemon tea is what I am looking after mineral water.
can you do the splits?
no
Favorite Food:
Tempe, you know? Indonesian food and Pasta, with carbonara sauce
can you keep a secret?
sometimes lol
Favorite Restaurant:
Indonesian and italy
Favorite Ice Cream:
chocolate please
Do you drink?
in my dream
Do you smoke?
you wanna see me kicked out?
Do you do drugs?
you weird
Do you like to sing?
YEP
Do you like to dance?
YEP
Have you ever been in love?
who's on earth never?
Do you believe in love at first sight?
em maybe
Describe yourself in three words:
short,fluctuate,nice
Do you believe in yourself?
sometimes no
As a kid who did you look up to?
my mom?
What did you want to be when you "Grew up"?
An unreplaceable beautiful Mom :')
What do you do for a living?
living? for myself? I am 18, and I still need Dad you know
Do you like the rain?
probably
Do you like Thunderstorms?
NO,
What's your fondest memory?
so much, one of them having a big family trip last february
Have you ever shoplifted?
er no
Do you have any tattoos?
I planned this lol
Do you have any piercings?
NO
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
em no
When is the last time you went on a road trip?
idk
What is one thing you refuse to eat?
Duren
What's your birthstone?
i don't know what birthstone is
What's your Zodiac sign?
Libra
What year did you graduate high school?
2011
What's your all time favorite song?
Love story, lonely lullaby, drive by, that's what friends are for,so much
Do you have any scars?
not a big scars actually
What kind of car do you have?
a toyota
What kind of car would you like to have?
whatever as long as it has 4 wheels and beautiful!
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
kahfi
Do you like cartoons?
YES
What's your favorite smell?
Mr. U Kno Who's parfume
What do you do while you're driving?
i'm not drive
What's your favorite store to shop in?
em sooooo much
Do you believe in Karma?
probably
What's your favorite number?
0
What's your favorite sport? 
is laying on the bed belongs to sport?
When was the last time you cried?
idk
Have you ever had your heart broken?
you think?
Have you ever lived in a different state?
No
Where would you like to live?
here in my home
Are you a fast typer?
em you think how much time i need to make this sentence done?
Are you listening to music right now?
no
When were you the saddest in your life?
when my grandmom's leaved for ever,
What does your CD player have in it right now?
nothing lol
If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
black, it can coloured all colours
What is your middle name? 
none

If you could change anything in your past what would it be?
I'll take UI as my college
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
man? cause I am women lol
What's your favorite color?
rainbow, but mostly uhm, brown
What's your biggest pet peeve?
sometimes bruno won't listen to my advice
What's your favorite movie?
Harry potter!
What's your favorite TV show?
right now? kejar tayang
What's your favorite perfume/cologne?
em idk
Do you like the ocean?
Yes
Do you like roller coasters?
Yeeeeeeeep
What was your first job?
I haven't got it
If you could visit anywhere where would it be?
venice, santorini, palermo
Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
no
Do you wear contacts/glasses?
no
What's your favorite holiday?
last semester holiday
Have you ever fired a gun?
no
What's your favorite flower?
rose
How many pillows do you sleep with?
4
Hugs or kisses?
BOTH?
Do you bite your nails?
er no
Do you have any siblings?
2
Have you ever been on a plane?
i need it to come back home every year -_-
What is your current desktop picture?
a capture of Pixie Lott video, poker face
If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
wallet and cellphone
What's your favorite book?
so much.
Do you swear?
em what?
Are you a morning person?
what is this?
Do you like your job?
i haven't got a job
What was the first car you owned?
me? haven't got mine. It was dad's
Do you care what others think about you?
as long as they talk the truth, nope,
The craziest thing you've ever done:
idk
What ringtone is on your cell phone right now?
Typical ,ost of a movie, i forget what,
What kind of cell phone do you have?
Blackberry

Sore

What is their name?
Mr. U Kno Who
What pet name do you like to call them?
I don't like this ew way to call him
How long have you been together?
years
How did you meet?
school mate, primary,secondary, high school
What do you like the most about them?
i don't know
What do you like the least about them?
i don't know
What is the best thing they have ever done for you?
i don't want to tell you
Have they met your parents yet?
yes
What would you kids look like if you had kids?
smart, nice, stubborn, love art, beautiful
What is the worst argument you have had?
why he's so selfishand it's happen, again, right now, for many many time
Do you still kiss a lot?
no
Who asked who out?
him
Do you think you will get married?
probably, but who knows
Can you see yourself growing old with them?
he's the one on my mind when i am thinking about future
What is the one thing you would like to change about them?
throw away his selfishness for now
What do you think they would like to change about you?
i don't know
What is the first gift they ever bought you?
a Peterpan new album?
Do you have a favorite song together?
love story?
Which famous person do you think they look like the most?
i don't know
Would you say the two of you are a good match?
i don't know