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"...Yang nyangkut di mata dan di hati itu kan beda."

 - Fathin, 19 y.o., taken.
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If You Know What I Mean

Copied from a random blog. This just reminds me of something.

F: So, what now? 

M: It's only you and me now. That is the only thing that matters. 

F: Why didn't you look for me much earlier? We would have had much more time compared to   what we have now. 

M: I had my own doubts... And surely you had yours. I was questioning a lot of things. Being away from you helped me find the answers.

F: Were you? What kind of answers have you found?
M: What I want. What I need. Who I have to pour my heart to.
F: I don't know what we will be... but indeed your presence comforts me.
M: Was there anyone else comforting you since we parted?
F: In my mind, you have never left after all. Not even a step out of spine.
M: ...you know. I kind of hope this plane would fly forever, but I guess Brazil is warmer than this flying fridge. My hands are cold already.
F: Do you think people fall in to and out of love because of happenstances?
M: There can be no love without coincidence. I am not a believer of planned infatuation. You have to go through every pain to see if they are really worth loving.
F: Love seems like a scary concept if in order to possess it one ought to inevitably suffer in pain...  
M: It's not always the case. But like the saying goes, you wouldn't know what you've got until it's gone, right?
F: ...and that if it hurts, it's probably worth it.
M: Did it hurt?
F: If it did not hurt, I would not be leaning against your chest at the moment as if there was no tomorrow. Yet, if it had hurt me a little too much, I would not bear being around you this close.
M: Indeed. I can't afford letting the chance to return to you slip past me once again. I can't see you being apart from me once more. This time it's the heart really talking.
F: Would you like to have more stories together?
M: I wouldn't mind doing anything, but I'd put my emphasis on 'together'.  
F: Even if I am being utterly unreasonable about things? Such as, wanting to be with you perpetually?
M: Even if. Are you sure you would ever be more unreasonable than me - impulsively getting away with you to a city miles away from here?
F: I sure am. The farthest distance I would like to have with you from now on is a heartbeat away, if you don't mind.
M: I was thinking of ways for our hearts to beat together, actually. Would it be possible? Though a heartbeat away is probably the farthest I could handle. You know, I would not mind exploring your idea. A heartbeat away, isn't it? You and me?
F: A heartbeat away, it is. You and me.

God Just Showed Me The Way

Bonsoir.

Kaya yang udah aku share semalem, aku engga tidur 2 hari, and this happened for the very first time. Actually, hari ini aku udah ngerencanain bakal tidur jam delapan. Tapi ... Dapet shocking-annoying telepon dari si Boss bikin mau ngga mau harus melek sampe kelar, se engga nya 80% surat-suratnya kelar. You know, program kerja kementerian yang mendadak harus kelar akhir tahun ini, and as the nicest secretary *eyelashes*, aku terpaksa harus kelarin setiap surat yang dibutuhin si Boss.

Hari ini cukup bikin some buttterflies dancing on my belly. Dan mungkin alasan nya ngga penting buat kamu. Tapi buat aku, It makes a pretty sense. 

• Hari ini tanggal 17, dan aku resmi taken. Engga deh, canda. Eh, serius ngga ya~ 

 

• Langkah gontai ke B 33, dan boring class hampir aja bikin tepar di bahu Puput dan Aaron, kalo bukan ada yang tiba-tiba ngetuk pintu daaaaaaaan JEEEEENG JEEEENG I really know that mustache!!!! YEP. My crush just got into the same class with MEH! Untuk pertama kalinya. NPM kita jauhan banget. Aku 072 nah dia 200 berapaaa gitu. Cuma kaya 'Kenapa, Tuhan? Kenapa ngga dari dulu aku dikasih jalan kenal dia. Kenapa ngga dari dulu kita satu kelas???' HUUFT. Mungkin kemarin alasanku masuk kelas Cost Accounting karena sayang absen, tapi sekarang I have a better reason :)

 

• Setelah momen bahagia itu berakhir untuk sementara, kaki capek dan mata bengkak harus kuliah lagi. Kali ini praktikum Statistika II. Dan setengah jam kelas, tiba-tiba cowok di depan noleh ke belakang, then look right into my pupil. "Tadi yang diganti apa sih?" Tiba-tiba sadar itu temen ospek setahun lalu yang tiba-tiba ngasih tissue pas nangis dan ngasih amplop buat ngirim surat ke Mama. :''''''''')  

Kenapa semuanya kaya di PHP in ke aku sih, Dear You, The Script Writer of Life? Tapi ya udah sih, kata Fathin, yang nyangkut di mata sama di hati itu beda. Kalo untuk di hati, aku udah punya kamu :3

Em, I promised my ownself, since I knew who will sit there, in the same room with me, for this semester, I will never skip my Cost Accounting Class :)

Ouch.

Holla.

A lil bit shocked? I really can't close my eyes. It is 3.45 a.m. actually and just finished another Orizuka's book, "I For You". Believe me or not, I will cry over every single novel that I read. Those remind me of some memory of, hate to say this, past. It makes me wandering why can't I get one of  those valorous man. If those happy ending makes some flows on my pillow, How it could be If it had an sad ending*wiping tears*

Okay. It all was not the point. This disobedient tired eyes decided to do ... em, uh, well, kepo. We called it 'stalking' in another way. Yep. I just stalked. I mean, accidentally. I just see a tweet on my twitter's timeline, 

*viewed conversation*, 

*opened in new tab*, 

*scrolled down* 

and found an account that makes my forehead a little wrinkled. This girl has no twitter account, as I knew.

*opened her profile page*. -Damn, you curious mind 

I found her blog and, again, 

*opened in a new tab*. 

*Scrolled*, 

*older post*

AAAND, accidentally found a post. Random post. It's about a song of HiVi-Orang Ketiga. And I know she just wrote about me and another person that annoyed her. Not to be rude, but She's annoying, and it was the only reason why Her boyfriend, I mean ex, UPS, broke her up. It was not caused by me sweety bear :)

Ps. Yes, I am talking about, you. If you know what I mean. *winking* 

Fill In The Blank Friday- September 14th.

Happy Friday!

Hope you've had a fabulous week!
And now to wind down the work week with some Fill in the Blank Friday action!

1.  Right now the weather where I live is    unpredictable, you know. I live in Bandung, a kind of mountain area, It should've been cold actually. But I bet You don't wanna go out on the day if you don't want an unexpected tanned in some part of your skin. But I recommend you a blanket for the night and a water heater. Cause It's gonna be very cold on the night and you will get a shocking icy-water on the morning.

2.  The best piece of advice I've been given is  "Solat jan pernah tingga." It means Don't ever,even once of your lifetime, forget to do your prayer. This is what my Mom tell me over and over. But really sorry, Mom, I sometimes did it, fortuitously :(.

3.  My most favorite person in all the world is  My Awesome Mom, again. You couldn't even imagine what she felt inside when her children acted out of her control,but she always tried to tell us over and over, patiently, what's right and what's wrong. She hide tears inside if one of us, accidentally hurt her. And I didn't want to know how it feel, when she need to face the world without her Mother when she just about 6 years :( She is the thougest woman ever and burst out crying to her arms is the most comfort way ever.

4. My most favorite item in my closet is  all my scarf. It is always worth it :)

6. The best cure for a bad day is  take a shower, eat some food, and do prayer.

7.  Today is   tiring. I just accompanied Putri, my friend, looking for some stuff.

Here We Go, again, Bandung :)

Hello people!

It is the 5th day since I came back here, in Bandung. Actually, I got so much thing to share with you. But sometimes, something is better left unspoken. You don't know how it feels when you should hardly hold your fingers not to type about what had happened 5 days ago and hold your fussy mouth. But FYI, what happened 5 days ago is one of the greatest thing that happened to my life. 

Okay. 

Being at home for almost two months didn't make you feeling bored. The more times you spend at home, the harder you felt to go. Home is the first place that I've never wanted to lose, you are the second :). I remember the time when I hugged Mom and Dad before I leave. I know they tried not to cry in front of me and I thought they also didn't want me to pour my tears down. We all just tried to face it. Ah, I hate distance.

And Here I am right now. Having a lonely boring midnight in my room, as usual :(

Btw, the classes have been started for a week. I took my first French class. YEAY! It was really fun. I can introduce my self in French!!!! I will make a record of mine speaking French then I will share it to you :) If you want it :p Then I also got some weird classes. But seriously it's weird -_- Some random lecturer. Believe me or not, Mr. Yunizar, my organization behavior lecturer took 1 hour just to spell his name letter by letter and tried to tell us the meaning of every single letter of his name -____________- I AM NOT KIDDING! It took more than 1 hour -_- 

Another annoying part is the unstable schedule of the classes. It changed arbitrarily and you might have 3 classes at the same time, just like what happened to me today.

But this 5 days it is not only about annoying stuff at college. Yesterday I planned to go to Jatinangor with Putri. We planned to attend the Student Day. But I didn't know why we changed it planned, and decided to stop the bus and walk down. We trapped in strangeland :o But thanks to GPS anyway we finally ended up in Transtudio :D 

I still have much thing to tell anyway. But you know, my fingers seems like have a trouble to type more. I am so tired today. 

xoxo

Ps. I just back home after Karaoke with friends *yawning*

  

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Holiday is almost over. Even for some people It is already over. It drowns my mood when suddenly a picture of lecturer, classes, and campus cross my mind :(  But then I realized that there will be some ... uh, well, cool people around me. Oh, Guys. I already miss you. But the thought of what I left behind makes me really sad. Mom, Dad, Kudin, Haura, bestfriends make it so hard to back to 'rantau'. I miss my college mates, I miss Bandung. But hard to leave. If only I could back home in every single weekend. It is gonna be fine. 

I spend 75% in this almost 2 months like a lazy cat. Laying down, craving food, watching some movies staying up midnight.  There is no important thing but this what I will never found out there. I spend the another days with doing some fun with my bestfriend, had some shopping times with Mom, breakfasting at Uki's, hanging out, dating-in my own style. 

I seems had nothing, but this holiday is really worth it. Family, food, friends, laugh everywhere. Happiness. Oh God I don't want to leave :( 

Ps. This Picture taken at Gita's. They are my classmates, and will always gonna be my bestfriends forever.